I was going to do an instagram post but this was a long story. So I came back to my favorite place, and maybe this is the best place for it.
I am still trying to put my words together and share what I experienced before, during and after the @transformationconference #v01!
When I was young I used to go to many retreats , where I could spend days or weeks learning the Bible. Well they never helped me truly, because I was most of the times forced to go (by my parents). I never focused on God because all I was doing was following the rules of a religion. Also how my culture really did great in pushing us to believe into religion more than seeking what God wants us to do on this earth? (That’s another story to come back to).
As I grew up and got to live by myself in the middle of nowhere, I started realizing that God never wanted us to be religious; but to be one and get to know him. God meets us everywhere at any time.
One of my New Year’s resolutions, Was to go away and give God my ears, and my time without being forced this time lol. I didn’t know how this was going to be as I had planned for one long vacation, and had many conferences to attend. so I was like well God will make a way. That was in January.
First of all, everyone who knows me knows that I love Hillsong, (like my whole childhood I grew up singing and always saw myself one time meeting Darlene Zschech, and telling her how my dream once was to join Hillsong🤣🤣). Honestly, being real, I am still looking forward to it 😂.
(we will come back to why I don’t sing that often anymore, another time. Because I don’t know! )
Anyway, as I was saying, I had been following and watching sermons from different preachers. This time, I was unexpectedly watching Michael Todd live, preaching and he made an announcement that #v01 was happening in September. For some reason I said yes, this is it! That was I believe early March. I added this to my wish list. (I had a long wish list for my 25th birthday, yes! Those who saw it, can tell you how long this list was 🤣😂)!
I didn’t even think twice y’all, I bought the ticket the second they were available online., without knowing where I will get the money for a plane ticket and a hotel. Talking about crazy Faith.
As we got closer to those dates, I started losing hope. I couldn’t see where the money was going to come from. I was dealing with family emergencies( so that was already the begin of a financial crisis), stress of finding a new apartment and getting ready for school, and many other personal issues.
So I started to make a plan B just in case. My second plan was to drive( if it happens that I don’t get a flight ticket). When I said that, some of my friends where like, you are crazy you will get tired! So I kept telling God, find a way because I need this!
Two days before the conference, I started reading comments on @transformationconference IG, other people’s testimonies. How they got their plane tickets paid for, other trying to connect to get rooms when they land in Tulsa. And I was like well, “If anyone is driving from Maine or Massachusetts hit me up, I wouldn’t mind a partner to drive with for a day and half!” I kept saying that. I immediately connected with two girls on IG who were coming to the conference, Rose And Simoine. We immediately started chatting as if we knew each other! Y’all, I was looking forward to the conference without even having a rental car nor a plane ticket yet!
A dear friend of mine who heard me lamenting was like let’s find a way. In 24hrs before the conference starts, that is when I got a plane ticket and a hotel. It was one of the best experiences I’ve ever been to and felt like it should never end. To see the way I connected with many people and gained many sisters… out of the blue, they prayed for me and hugged me like they knew me. But let’s not forget we didn’t know each other at all! 😂 I still laugh because chileee, sh*t was weird and funny! But this was a movement!
I even met my favorite IG big sister, Candace. I don’t know why I’m laughing while typing this. But she is dope!
Bottom line is sometimes miracles happen when we are about to quit. Things shift differently, when we let go off all we intend to always control, especially when we know nothing can be done unless God’s hands are on it first. I have been doing my activism and advocacy, going cool places, meeting cool (celebrities) people, claiming that I pray (which I do a lot), but never sat down and listen to what God wanted to whisper in my ears, this whole time.
I am not perfect, never will be. The stress, anxiety, family emergencies, financial crisis or college struggles.., these can be overwhelming. But it’s a matter of who we run to when we need a move. We tend to get other people’s opinions more than sitting down and listening to what God has to say. Having friends around you is great, having true friends that support you and encourage you to seek more of what God is planning for you (not what religion says) is way better. Friends who accepts you as you are and carry you all the way through (even when your Beliefs aren’t the same), friends who cheer you up even when you feel like you aren’t winning. Those are the friends you need, and for me one of the greatest of all, is Jesus. This picture right here👇🏾, is the definition of my experience. The joy I cannot explain, it keeps me going daily!
Thus, the same God that made it possible for me to be at the conference is the same one that brings stability in every area of our lives. I am still discovering a lot, whatever it takes I will keep seeking. And for that, I am so dang GRATEFUL and EXCITED. Gotta try it, it works if you begin with what you have! CRAZY FAITH!
Ok bye, before I sound too religious now, and before all haters start jumping to conclusions. This is one of my testimony that happened this year. It is SO!